Cause and Infection
CAUSE.AND.INFECTION
Just A Thought4/7/2020 I was looking at Calvin’s story on insta and he was asking for people's worst memories of him. That instantly reminded me of the time Tyler told me he was a psychopath because while Tyler was driving Calvin threw a two liter of soda in his face and tried to kill them both while driving. Le siiiiiigh. I guess I just love me some cute psychopath. I have heard something similar about every guy I really liked. Irredeemable shit, total douchebag, psychopath. But they cute tho.
Before I met him one of the guys I liked pantsed a kid at his friends birthday party then threw the kids pants on the roof of the house. The parents of the birthday boy had to climb onto the roof and get the other kids pants. I heard this was while they were in middle school. Lots of people said he was a total douche. He ended up gaslighting me so I guess maybe he was? I dont remember Calvin being terrible to me? Though there was that one time we were fighting, I think it might have been Christmas, and he had boxing gloves on and he kept punching me till my arms turned black and blue. My arms looked so sexy New Years Eve. I wish I had pictures. It was pretty bad. I had a lot of fun and Tyler commented on the sexual tension between me and Calvin while we were consensually beating each other up. Calvin is the fucking cutest tho. He would fall down to the ground to coo at caterpillars and got excited about every dog. It was fucking amazing. I remember I was crying in the kitchen and Calvin asked who he needed to beat up for me, it was Tyler that made me cry so I didn't tell him. That made me extremely happy though when I was crying and he was offering to protect me. My knight in shining armor who also wasn’t afraid to box and wrestle with me. Sadly he was my best friends brother and my best friend asked I didn’t go that route. My best friend is a world class character. I dont know that I still have the right to call him best friend though after the way I acted around him with one of them. I have issues. I’m working on them. This blog is here for me to process and spread a bit of my knows. I dunno if I will ever stop loving cute psychopaths. I am trying not to get myself murdered. so originally I stopped right here but Imma keep going. There was this one time at Muay thai when we were sparring that me and this cute boy with long blond hair got paired up. It was too fucking cute. Everyone else was probably grossed out, but like after we touched gloves every time we punched or kicked each other and made contact we would giggle. I think he was actually from the mixed martial arts class and was popping in during Muay Thai for an extra workout. But omg 😍 *punch* teeheehee *kick* teeheehee *punch, punch* teeheehee I think our coach actually commented on how we were having too much fun. I don’t think people understand how much I enjoy consensual fighting. I think I need to get back into martial arts. Omg this one time at Muay Thai we had the doors open cause the gym would get really steamy and smelly. Me and one of the better trained guys were sparring in front of the door and a car pulled up to the stop light in front of the door. What I believe to be an African- American dude popped his torso out the car and shout at the dojo ”I DONT KNOW KUNGFU BUT I KNOW CRAAAAAAZY-EH”. Everyone stopped sparring and just stood there laughing for a minute. Life has its beautiful perfect moments.
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